imagine if my first thought
on a cold drive south to the city
wasn't another damsel daydream of intimacy
another heartache hero rescue
another cry into your shoulder
another "hush, it's fine, come lie with me a while"
instead, i film private movies
in which i am your first thought
in which i'm lover, neighbour, everything
and i hold my own hand, skin on glove,
fingers laced together,
to make sure it feels different this time
my wishful school-bus thought is your attention
your fingers on my wrist, searching for a pulse
your hands that graze my forearm as you pull up on the blanket
and tell me everything looks different in the sun
i make do with self-acceptance
a little prayer and absolution
it's fine, because it never truly happened
so i'll live for public transit
for my cold drive south to the city
and i'll hold my gloved hand tightly, and with tenderness
and i'll cling to secret grief of recognition
my empty fingers searching for a pulse
and i'll wait for someone's song to break the silence
and tell me everything looks different in the sun
credits
from empty vessels,
released January 28, 2023
lilli furfaro - songwriter
hunter rogerson - producer, audio engineer
Hello! I know it's pretty typical to say how much this album means to me but you have no idea the immaculate timing. I just graduated college and am now a teacher. I hated that I couldn't garden while away from home and felt like I was missing something. As I return home now, I realized that it wasn't gardening that I was missing. I don't know what it may be. I guess I'll keep looking, with good tunes to aid me along the way. spgavan
I do not normally cry because of music, or fiction in general. Chords made me cry. Every time I listen to it, it still feels like a warm, tight goodbye hug.
But it isn't what convinced me to buy this album, because damn, I knew I would right from the start of Secret Worlds, and knew it ever more at every song. The way the songs here can combine to tell a whole new story, and even reference others from The Horror and the Wild, is just magnificent. Mayana
The Australian folk-pop singer tackles deconstruction, her Christian childhood, and sexuality on her infectious sophomore album. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 14, 2023
I discovered this band mere weeks ago through pure chance; someone recommended Fair in a discussion about wholesome songs. And it was; love at first listen. YouTube recommended me Battle Cries next, so I gave that a listen too, and the the energy and the overlapping lyrics made me fall in love anew.
I bought this album and Ruin less than a day later. Everything TAD have made is true art, different from everything else I've heard. Mayana